Saturday, January 12, 2008
i've been sighing and feeling all down in the dumps the whole day and that's just no good. i feel like time has suddenly went back a year and i'm feeling the same emotions that i felt a year ago. which for the record weren't and aren't emotions that i wish to feel again or any time in the near future.
i don't know anymore. now i'm feeling like i misread the signs that i'm just making all this up in my head. i think i was the one who led myself in to this emotional termoil that just won't let up.
i've been quite blatant and giving him multiple signs and hints and by this time if nothing happens i'm guessing he's just not interested. but i just need someone to put me out of my mysery!!
WILL SOMEONE PUT ME OUT OF MY MYSERYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY ALREADY?!
anyway i little response to Jeremy's blog and also a list that i've been planning to do for a very long time... so my dear friends [read: Perlin, Nana, Charm (we were the ones who thought of this list last year remember? haha) Samuel, Warren] do take note of this list ok! and make sure that my future boyfriend fits the bill!
the point to this list is because when you fall in love you become blind and oblivious to the, maybe very obvious, red warning lights that are flashing! and at this point only your most trusted friends can save you. SO HERE GOES! =) btw the list will get longer in due time! so my dear friends keep yourselves updated k!
1) MUST BE GENEROUS! just because I will insist to pay doesn't mean you shouldn't offer. its not the paying that matters, its the thought that counts...
2) MUST SPEAK GOOD ENGLISH! its simple. i don't speak very good chinese. he doesn't have to be Shakespeare he just has to be able to express himself without gramatical errors or the use of chinese words. Singlish is fine, its our culture. Well at least, that's my excuse.
3) MUST HAVE MORALS, INTEGRITY and ETHICS. again, he doesn't have to be as morally upright as umm........ ummm..... God. but he still must posses the decency to tell me when he cheats on me. (yes, i'd rather know)
4) MUST BE A GENTLEMAN!!! (ie- Warren) at least OPEN THE DOOR FOR GOODNESS SAKES!!! its really the least you can do! and again, offer to pay first when out with a group of girls and then we'll pay you back... a guy with good manners scores many many brownie points!
5) MUST LIKE TO WATCH CARTOONS! i love watching cartoons so he'd better be willing to go to the cinema to watch with me =)
6) GIFTS. although i nag about soft toys and flowers collecting dust, it still would be nice to receive them, perhaps just less often... and no mugs please! or photo frames for that matter unless it has a gorgeous picture of us in it =)
7) MUST BE ABLE TO GET ALONG WITH MY GIRLFRIENDS. i'm not asking you to be best friends with them but it would be nice to be able to have dinner with my loved ones all at the same table =) if not, you should at least smile and say hi.
8) MUST NOT BE VAINER THAN ME! i don't want my boyfriend commenting on my blackheads, it doesn't matter whether or not they exist! (which they don't, the ginseng mask from Korea has been marvellous!)
9) I'M NOT INTO THE WHOLE GRUNGE LOOK. enough said.
10) MUST NOT LAY A HAND ON ME. in any way other than an affectionate way. =)
11) Should be generous with affection. you don't have to say you love me, esp if you don't mean it... but i like big bear hugs and kisses when i least expect it.
alright. that's about it for the moment. =) the list is not long, but finding a guy who fits the bill is going to be a search for a needle in a haystack!
but my dear friends, one thing i do promise you guys is that even when i do have a boyfriend i will not neglect you! =) you guys are very very important to me and i don't know how i would have managed to live through the past year without you guys! =) you guys are always there to make me feel better when i just want to crawl into a little hole, squeeze my fat bum inside and rot. =) i love you guys!
ALSO. my beloved friends, make a list of your own so that not only you can look out for me, but i can do the same for you! =) i'm waiting to see that list on your blogs k!!! =)
update- Warren blogged yay! http://warren-elliot.blogspot.com
