Little Miss Lazy Bum

Saturday, June 17, 2006

fool me once, shame on you.
fool me twice, shame on me.

you know what. i really bought that. i really did. but its over now. i do not give a shit or a rats ass or the whole of the backstabbing whore community of which you are part of. i really thought that you could change. not only for me. but also for youself.

i'm done.

11:30 PM

i made a good gratin dauphinoise today.. probably shouldn't have eaten so much potatoes.. so much for dieting.. haha.. whoops..

look at the layers of potato and creme and cheese on top!!! mmmmmmmmm!

weee! big tray of gratin dauphinoise!!

hehe.. so i watched the re-run of Singapore Idol just now.. and i like Joakim. haha.. i'm glad he got in.. he chose a great song! haha.. i know. i being biased..lol.. but he was the most entertaining one of all this week's contestants.. i didn't like the guy that sang "sorry seems to be the hardest word" cuz he looked so stuck up and cocky, big fat fucking deal so u'r a singapore idol but u haven't even won the thing and you didn't even sing well.. hm.. go eat a bowl of modesty and a drink a glass of humble..

hahaha. whatever that meant.

i'm hormonal now. so. ya. i'm cramping and i feel week and tired.

i'm going to the zoo. what about you you you? we're going to the zoo!

i'm going tmr. hehe. i'm happy! i know. haha.. lameness right? the last time i went there i went with Adrian. we had such fun! haha.. i think couples should go to the zoo.. hehe.. remember to bring water!! such a rip off to buy drinks at the zoo.. hmm.. i'm going tmr! and then i'm going to underwater world on tuesday! hehe! yippee! excited!

time flies.

9:49 PM

damn. i feel clingy today.. kinda whiney too.. kinda like this black cloud i took a pic of on the way to work.

i should probably stop before i scare my poor bf away.. haha..

aniwae. i have been really busy with work.. work is fun i guess. .but now everyone has changed.. i mean.. everyone from my batch is no longer working.. so its only me and the newbies.. it kinda sucks i guesss... i miss my ting er and xinni! haiz.

annniiwae. ok. i'm here to rant about some people. ok.

it is 1015. waitresses start polishing the tables and resetting the tables and getting ready to close the shop. 4 pairs of eyes are staring at your table wondering when will you leave and thinking about what time they can get to go home.

its 1025. a poor sweaty and bloody tired waitress is starting to sweep the floor at the other side of the restaurant. occasionally giving you death glares.

its 1035. you are still sitting there talking.. you notice the shutters to the restaurant is already in place.. ready to shut the restaurant. the lights outside the restaurant are all dimmed and the shopping mall is closed.

1045. you are still sitting there and u feel 4 waitresses cursing underneath their breath.

ISN'T IT OBVIOUS THAT YOU HAVE OUT-STAYED YOUR WELCOME?!?!?! ITS TIME TO GO HOME PEOPLE! YOU DON'T NEED TO REST WE DO! WE'VE BEEN WORKING FOR SO LONG AND WALKING ALL AROUND THE WHOLE DAY. FOR GOODNESS SAKE. HAVE SOME BLOODY PITY FOR THE WAITRESSES! THE SERVICE CHARGE YOU PAY ISN'T ENOUGH TO PAY ONE WAITRESS FOR HALF AN HOUR!

so next time you are in a restaurant and you see the waitresses starting to clean up.. ITS TIME TO PAY THE BILL AND LEAVE!

aniwae.. so that's what happened today.. some self centered couple decided to come in for brownies at about 950.. and stayed until like 1030+.. gosh.. isn't it obvious that we are packing up and getting ready to close??? HELLO? damn.

that got me pissed today. so self-centered you know.. bloody people.. if u wanted to stay until 12+ then you should have went to another restaurant like the cafe cartel ( although the service is not as good [who am i kidding.. there is NO service.. i raised my hand for 1 and a half minutes before someone attended to me..] but they open until really late on fridays.. and saturdays.. )

man i'm pissed and moody and whiney today.. bad combo.......... =S

2:14 AM

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

you aren't growing fat until your boyfriend says so. its so rare for guys to notice something different about you so if they do then i guess it must be damn obvious. but no worries i'm glad my boyfriend and i can be that frank with each other and totally feel comfy about it. haha. and when i ask him later on if i'm fat he'll be like nooo.. juz cute cute only.. haha.. guys are cute like that aren't they? haha.

so i really do wonder what is the limit on "fat-ness" that a guy can still accept.. we were eating at marina south just now and there was this plump girl. so i decided to ask Adrian if that was acceptable. and he was like if you really become like that i won't bring you to a buffet, instead i'll bring you jogging. haha.. so what's the limit?? when does too fat becomes unacceptable to a guy?

i know some people will be thinking as long as you have self confidence it doesn't matter if you are fat.. WELL. wake up people and smell the oil boiling under the critisizing stares fat people receive from passer-bys... i know. been there. felt that.

ah well. i guess its really time to lose weight.. not only for Adrian ( cus i know some of you out there will be like... well.. if he doesnt like you for you then he's not worth it.. ) but also for myself... i wanna look good.. i wanna be healthy.. so help me ya? the next time i pick up chocolate, chop one of my fingers off.. ya?

10:13 PM

a warm soft cheek landed on mine.. a sweet feeling rushed through my body as he whispered in my ear.. it felt as if we were sharing a secret that the rest of the world didn't know.. i smiled to myself as i looked into his eyes and wondered is it fate that we met?

i love him.

Love. its such an undescribable feeling. when i look into his eyes, i feel as if i've known him my whole life. when i'm in his arms i just wanna hold him tight and make sure i never let go.. the feeling is powerful and scary at the same time.

we talk about the past and leave it behind. we talk about the future in anticipation. for the first time. i can actually visualise a future with the one i'm with. i imagine a humble home. while i'm cooking he wraps his arms around me and while watching me cook he teaches me a few of his tricks.. and a few years later while he's cooking i'm with our kid teaching him the abc and cooing at the new born in his basinet.. and when they are all grown up with kids of their own, we'll be sitting on the sofa thinking back on our lives and the way we met and the way we ended up together, the obstacles we had to overcome along the way and how we finally made it this far.

i don't know why tears are trickiling down my cheek while i'm typing this.. it may be because its a beautiful image.. it may be also the fear of losing this dream...

love is scary. you never know what will happen next. while i'm imaging this scenario, he might be imagining another.. and He from up above might have planned another..

i'm afraid to lose what i have now.. i've given all my heart.. i've taken a gamble. i've decided to jump into the unknown. if i lose this bet, everything will be gone.. i trust and put my whole heart into this relationship..

come what may..

i gave u my whole heart. don't let me down. i love you.

12:04 AM

Monday, June 12, 2006

its was a good day! nothing embarrasing happened today.. haha.. other than.. there is this other girl working there.. she's new.. so i was asking her what sch she from and stuff.. and i told her i'm from CMM in TP and she's from business in RP.. then she asked me why didn't i go to JC.. then i told her my reasons.. and then i asked her why didn't she go to JC.. gosh! how stupid.. haha.. cuz i think maybe business some thing something is for those who scored big numbers in O lvls.. she gave me that "duh" look and said.. cuz i got too many points.. haha.. silly me.. so embarrassing... haha.. not every one gets 13/10 pts lil!!! geez.. i felt so paiseh la.. kinda like suan her.. .. whoops.

other than that there is nothing much else.. my poor baby is sick.. he looked sooo pityful today.. like wanna die wanna die like that... poor honey! take care baby! haha..

aniwae... moving on.. i read on sunday's The New Papers that this ang mo columnist is afraid of what lurks behind his bus stop.. WELL... i think he should be afraid of what lurks ON THE BLOODY ROOF OF THE BUS STOP.. well.. one day i was minding my own business.. sitting at the bus stop.. enjoying the wind blowing at my hair.. i was feeling all music video drama-ish and suddenly a chirp from a stupid lizard ruined the whole moment.. so i looked up and saw two lizard like on top of each other.. i was like.. wow so that's how lizards reproduce.. so i looked away.. giving them their own privacy.. i mean.. when i have sex i probably wouldn't want some by stander watching me ya? so aniwae.. so i went back to doing my own thing.. watching out for the bus and stuff.. and then suddenly PIAK .

o. m . g

the lizardS fell on the floor one step away from where i was sitting.. it was such a loud piak.. like a wet towel that dropped on the floor.. ew right? PIAK LEH! wa lau.. scared the shit out of me.. but there's more to come.. aniwae.. so i thought they were dead.. i mean.. in lizard's view.. to fall from a bus stop ceiling is like falling off the empire state building for a human right? NO! ewwwwwwwwwwwww....(btw they landed with one chewing on the other's head.. which is sick right? ) so i thot well.. since they are already dead.. let them be la.. u know.. let them rest in peace.. right? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.. omg. apparently they resserected( spelling??).. the next time i looked down just to check on them.. ONE WAS MISSING!! WHAATTT??? ew. so i started freaking out.. i mean.. i was sitting so close to them..what if one was on my back??!!! wahahhahaaaaa!! i jumped out of my chair and stood somewhere there was no bloody ceiling.. haha.. damn.. i hate lizards.. i remember the last time i found a lizard in my room.. i remember freaking out and crying like mad.. haha.. and i refused to sleep in my room.. and made sure that every fucking thing that stupid lizard touched was disinfected.. haha..

ya.

i know.

i'm nuts.

and i hate lizards..

11:48 PM

Sunday, June 11, 2006

why do people put music on their blogs? i mean.. seriously! its FUCKING irritating..esp when you just wanna concentrate on reading something.. and then suddenly some music starts playing and then you sing along and can't read the bloody blog.. its worse when u'r already singing u'r own song which is playing on the radio or on the computer and suddenly a second sound comes out of nowhere which interrupts u'r singing and pisses the fuck out of you. damn those song blog things.. at least have an option on u'r blog where the reader gets to choose whether the music should be on or off.. gosh..

hmm.. wow.. i got really pissed... but its not only cuz of that.. today i tried to squeeze a bloody ingrown hair out of my underarm.. i know.. gross right? but i mean.. at least i don't have long curly armpit hair.. right? haha! no offence to those who have.. its a personal preference i guess.. haha... ouchie... pain pain.. oh wells..

i waited in vain for the re-run of Grey's anatomy... damn.. cuz usually the re-run is on sundays around 3 i think.. so i waited and waited.. and waited.. and watched beauty and the geek.. and then waited and nothing... damn it!!!!!!!! ARRRGGHHH!!!!!!

not a good day..

i'm working tmr.. mixed feelings.. kinda excited but kinda scared.. i mean.. i haven't worked in such a long time.. and now going back all the people have changed... and there's a bloody meeting tmr.. so gotta be on my best behaviour and smile even tho i feel like killing those stupid "i'm just looking for trouble" customers.. damn! arrgh! oh wells.. maybe by the time i reach they'll be gone.. haha.... oh wells.. i miss the time when it was just ting ting, xinni, maxwell, leslie, henry, jason( surprise surprise) and me... those were the days we'd just crap around.. working wasn't really like working.. i wonder if it will be the same when i go back this time.. oh wells.. juz have to wait and see tmr huh? dddddamn..... at least darling will still be there... that's some sort of consolation...

tmr will be a better day... (i hope) .......... now where on earth is my uniform?

8:16 PM