Thursday, October 18, 2007
i want to cry.
i want to break down and have a good cry. i want to release all these pent up emotions of disappointment, dispair and hopelessness.
but i know that crying will not help, not this time.
because what has been decided has already been decided. and its not fair.
its not fair because i wanted this as much or perhaps even more than the next person... neither is it fair that i made the effort but didn't reap what i wanted.
not only did i not get it, it has also shaken my dream. the dream that i've pictured so vividly in my mind. what i'd say and what i'd do...
its not fair.