Little Miss Lazy Bum

Saturday, July 22, 2006

i wrote one long blog entry. but i deleted it. it was about me feeling Adrian is not reciprocating the love, affection and care that i give him.

but you know what. i deleted it. for a simple reason. i love him. so much so, that i can start to accept that his way of loving me is different from the way i love him...

because i love him i will accept the way he is and not try to change him to who i want him to be..

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have you girls with boyfriends ever asked about your bf's exes?

i have. and i regret it.

cuz when you know, you'll start to compare...

us girls being more sensitive to such things will let our imagination run wild. and that very competitive side of us will emerge and compare how much our bf loves us as compared to his ex.. and we wanna win.. and when we don't everything turns sour............ (pun intended..jealousy..sour.. gettit??)

its like... i think that my bf was very extravagant and willing to part with his money for his ex-gf.. he'd buy for her things that she wanted.. its not that i want him to do the same thing for me cuz i feel that since i'm an abled person that i should work for my own things.. but its like................................. i dono.. do u get what i mean... he's so willing to please her... but he's not the same with me.. is it cuz he learnt a lesson from his previous relationship that he finds that he shouldn't spend too much money on a girl or else he'd regret it after that? or is it that i'm not deserving of such lavish treatment?

also when you find out where and what your bf and his ex gf went and what they did where.. you'll start to wonder what was it like.. does he feel the same.. did he bring me here cuz he was here with his ex and wanted to relive that moment?

i know i'm thinking too much again.. what's important is that his heart is with me.. and i'm the only one he sees.. =) i'm good.

was watching Laguna Beach on MTV today.. i think S'porean guys should learn from ang mo guys on how to treat a girl.. Stephen bought flowers and chocs for LC and Kristen.. and by chocs i'm not talking about those you find in the supermarket.. not mars, sneakers or Ferrero Rocher chocolate k... its those made at those chocolate shops.. aaaaaaaiya....... if S'porean guys could just take a leaf from their books... just one lesson on how to treat a girl......... i think we'd be happier girls............. and we'd have more free chocs to chew on while we're having pms......

speaking of which. it finally came. and its hurting like hell. such a bitch that period....

9:33 PM

Friday, July 21, 2006

does it feel different to be 17? one more year and i can get a drivers license... hmm.. just a thought.. one more week to enjoy my youth.. so i'll make full use of it.. =) beware of the childish pig me next week.. hahahahahaha... although.. i do think i'll still be childish even after 17... =S

i have nothing to blog about.. boring day.. boring.. boring boring..tiring.. so many projects to do......

10:06 PM

Thursday, July 20, 2006

i will so bloody win this lor.

my bf and and have decided to make a bet. we are to lose 5 kgs in 1 month.. the loser has to do a forfeit.. and then i heard him say something about lizards.. so i'll be ultra determined this time..

i felt so tired today after school but i still persevered.. i went to the gym! wahahahahaaaa! i ran 1.8km today.. which is quite a feat since i haven't been excercising in months.. i'm so going to win la... i'm going to win .. i can do it! yes i can! haha..

anyhow. had a damn funny and high day la.. cuz i was actually very very tired.. i almost didn't come for med soc.. i was that tired.. however, my darlings nvr fail to cheer me up! haha..we had such fun in the library smacking each other...

the funniest thing was while in journalism Hirzi was like growling at my ear la and i sort of didn't take much notice.. so while i was blinking to Charm($ i must have looked rediculous) i suddenly saw Hirzi growling to the left of my head and i just cracked up laughing la.. i must have looked hilarious blinking my eyes.. haha..

aiya.. Hirzi Hirzi.. nvr fails to brighten and liven up a dull day... haha..

anyhow. got tagged by Charmy.. haha.. so i shall do it! just for you sweetie pie! wahahahaha!

7 random things about myself.
-i feel like farting now.
-i used to wear braces..
-i went to the gym today.
-my nails are black with pink polkie dots..
-i love my legs... i wear skirts on my "i feel fat" days..
-my boobs are real..
-i blame my gain of weight on those damned marketing journals..

7 things that scare me
- lizards.
-that fugly bitch's thick sausage lips..
-JJ my neighbour's dog..
-no $$..
-the thought of no Adrian
-Wilber pan retiring.. (yes.i do love Wilber Pan.)
-snakes...

7 random songs at the moment
-twinkle twinkle little star....
-walk away
-leave(get out)
-i'm with you
-smooth
-the singapore idol theme thing.. the ahhh ahh ahhh ah ah ah ah ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
-if you're not the one..
(yes.i just finished watching SI.. )

7 things i like most.. ( things huh.... not people wor?ok la..)
- the rain..
-my bed
-my bolster
-my blanket/comforter..
-sleeping
-fake eyelashes..
-good masages...

7 people to do this..
ok la.. don't sabo anyone.. hahahahahahaa... btw.. can i tag the person who tagged me? or will that be too lame?

little update:

i was just reading through the archives of Xiaxue's blog and came upon the entry about the kang-tangs(Singaporean bananas.. ) that critisize Singapore. and i suddenly had such a strong urge to blog about it cuz....

its exactly what my sister is doing now.

my sister just came back from the US 2 days ago and now she's critisizing everything about Singapore..

i feel that she is no longer proud of Singapore. she's becoming one of those people that i dislike a lot. i truely am proud to be a Singaporean.. honestly.. true to God.. i am sooo proud that i'm a Singaporean.. look at how our country has grown from kampong houses to HDB flats that look like condos.. from the average person having not even a primary school education to now the average person at least having a diploma. and look at the people in Singapore, responsible and vigilant people who work together to keep the coutry safe.

yes, no doubt that we are more conservative than the US but that's the thing that differentiates us from the rest of the world. its our culture to be conservative. its the reason the number of abortions and teenage pregnacies in Singapore aren't as high compared to other countries. and its the reason kids don't bring guns to school to shoot their schoolmates..

and moreover its not as if Singapore is not slowly improving herself to be on par with other coutries. but you can't expect to have everything at once for all hell would break lose then...

i hate Singaporeans who only think of how to leave Singapore because they think their lives would be so much more superior if they grew up else where or talk in that act ang mo accent which sound so bloody fake.. like a pirated VCD...damn obvious..(you can seriously speek proper English without adding in the fake accents).. if Singapore didn't give you such a condusive environment to study and grow up in you wouldn't even dream of having that oppertunity.. if you're still only thinking about leaving.... then just leave. Singapore doesn't need such un-patriotic people anyway.................

9:25 PM

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

do you realise that in a relationship after awhile when you transition from the "awkward getting to know you" phase to the "i'm so comfortable with you that i can belch without any inhibitions" phase?

i think we have finally transitioned. we have moved to the time where we are comfy with each other. but i think its too fast...

i was just starting to enjoy basking in the warmth of the new love and care and thoughfullness... all the little actions that showed me how much you cared for me and how much you worried for me was sooo heart warming...

its the ordinary things like sending me home when its out of your way just so that i can reach home safely that makes me feel safe and protected...

or a simple kiss on the cheek out of the blue to know that you care for me even if you don't say so... or saying "i love you" once in awhile that reminds me that this relationship is going in the right direction..

or just hugging me when i'm feeling blue and insecure or bullied while not saying anything and just enjoying each other's company in silence...

or sitting under the stars while sharing a burger and fries us teasing each other with the fries... while watching the cockroaches run about in circles...

maybe all these little gestures have been hidden by the clouds... but the sun will always shine brightly again.. right?

i honestly believe that they will.. =)

happy six months baby! and to the many more to come... and i'm glad i found you...

10:16 PM

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

[this is going to be an obscene post.. don't read while eating.]

i have a habit.

i can't shit in public toilets be it school's toilet, toilets at shopping malls or toilets at other people's house.. i can only shit at home or at my grandma's house...

the reason being... i feel kinda paiseh.......... the sounds, smells, and the long queue outside waiting for the toilet.....hehe..

anyhow. today the minute i reached school i felt this strong urge to shit.. and then i was having stomach cramps while in the stupid APEL thing.. and then i could feel it on the verge of coming out already la...haha..

then after school we went shopping and i felt that the shit was like... hardening already.. haha...

so after 6 hrs of ren-ing i rushed home and aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....... shiok la..haha..

i realized that i'm not the only one with that habit..aparently some other people only shit at home at their own throwns.. like me.. hehe..

anyhow.. i think i spent too much money already la... ytd i bought a Mischa makeup base then today i bought earrings and sunglasses which cost 20 bucks... aiiiyya.. but its a good buy cuz it actually has SPF something.... rather than those cheap ones which are just plain plastic.. hehe

anyhow.. that day when i was eating gummy bears i realized that there are gummy hippos and lions tooo!! haha.. amazing.. i nvr knew...

anihow.. i think i'm going to sleep early.. all cuz of the stupid APEL i had to wake up so early today...

8:49 PM

Monday, July 17, 2006

haha.. went to Bombers at Bugis after school.. we ate the all star burger.. OMG. the best la. shiok man... and we had flavoured colas.. nana had choco and i had vanila..yummiiiieee!!! haha..

oops.. the other pics are with nana.. haha.. then we went to try on clothes.. we found a pencil skirt.. but it wasn't flattering..:S so we went to m)orphis( is that how u spell it?) to try clothes.. hahah.. we camped ther for like.... 20 mins? haha

looking like a clown.. i was wearing a polka dotted shorts and a polka dotted shirt.. haha.. major fashion faux pas.. haha!

9:37 PM

Sunday, July 16, 2006

its amazing how someone searched " pinapple cure for de bloated stomach " can find my site.

i don't think i've ever talked about pinapple.

although........... i do have a bloated stomach all thanks to pms.....

10:53 PM

i was talking to my Finnish friend from back in the ISB days... he used to be the heart throb of our level.. haha.. his hair is soooooooooo bloody soft.. i'm serious.. i used to love touching his hair... like rabbit's fur..

but that was back in seventh grade... what are we now...?? lemmi think.. now we're in... 11th grade.. hmm.. i nvr thought i'd get old so fast.. seventh grade was fun.. but it was sad.. i had to leave all my friends and come back to Singapore.. a land which was so unfamiliar to me although i'm a Singaporean..

i remember Crystal, my bosom buddy since 3rd grade.. the bubbly girl that never failed to make me laugh.. the only one to reassure me when i was feeling down... we even looked alike.. we talk once in a while.. i hope she's doing great in Vancouver... i miss her...

and then there was Julie, she only came during sixth grade.. i remember we used to pass letters to each other.. haha.. for what reason i'm not sure.. cuz we saw each other everyday.. i have no clue where is she now.. maybe still at ISB?

and Elyn.. the fellow Singaporean at ISB.. she was the smart one.. her chinese was on par with the chinese standards in Singapore while mine were like... haha.... whooops....... she's still at ISB.. i wonder what it feels like to be at ISB for so long .. does it start feeling like home?

and then there were the guys.. haha.. so many i can't list them all.. all sooo handsome...

ahhhahaha.. nostalgia.. i wonder what would life be like if i were still in ISB...

but then i wouldn't have Adrian by my side..... nah..... S'pore is better!

12:49 AM