Saturday, November 11, 2006
Adrian bought 8 strawberry smileys for me! wee~ happy happy girl.. hehe.. love loves.=) hehe..
i take for granted the simple things that makes our relationship so special..
i will learn to cherish.. i really will...
i love you baby..
we went to bugis today.. guess how much i spent!! OMG. 94 bucks k.. aiyaaaaa...
but i bought alot of things.. things that i have been wanting to buy for a long time already.. =) shall blog more tmr.. my fingers are freezing.....
10:53 PM
just a dinner with my gal pals and OMG is so satisfying.. =) we never stopped crapping around and playing mind games which sounds nerdy but very fun.. haha..
and as expected... Warren and I played around with our words again.. haha..
too bad i didn't bring my cam!! so sad lah.. if not i can take pics of us cam whoring again.. moreover we ate at Carl's Jr.. lol.. wouldn't it be fun if all of us imitated Paris Hilton?! WWWWWAHAHAAAA...
AH...=) but today was fun although i didn't buy anything that i had set out to buy.. oh wells.
anyhow.. as for my previous post i was just feeling so down in the dumps.. during that point i just didn't know what to do with my life.. all seemed so hopeles... cuz of my studies and cuz of something Adrian did that was the last straw that literally broke the camels' back..
its one of those times again i feel very regretful that i joined CMM instead of a Junior College.. i just suddenly feel that i don't belong here and i should have waited two more years to decide what i really wanted to do in life. cuz now there is just no time for me to go back and start over.
you know how some kids just know what they want to be since young? and now they are persuing their dreams? like Leslie wanting to be a pilot and Charm a dancer... i've never had something that i'm passionate about no ambition since young.. i've never really given much thought to my future.. i mean there are things that i want to do like a CLEO editor or a radio dj or an actress or singer.. but nothing that i really wanted to be since young..
i really don't know what this means......
but .
since i'm already here, i will try my best i guess..
and studying really isn't that bad afterall..
12:57 AM
Thursday, November 09, 2006
emotionally tired..
i've reached this point where all i want to do is curl up and die.
aren't you supposed to be there for me when i'm upset?
aren't you supposed to wrap your arms around me and let me cry?
aren't you supposed to comfort me?
where are you?
occasionally it would be nice if you could go that extra mile to make me feel better.. but no. it would be too much for you to do. for as i've said before, you are like the prince in Goong.
you only think about your own feelings. the whole world revolves around you.
when you are happy i must be happy with you.
when you are upset i cannot be happy.
when you are frustrated even if i'm upset i must accomodate you.
i'm supposed to be a puppet that will do whatever you want me to do.
i give you an inch and you want a mile.
when i want an inch you give me nothing.
9:30 PM
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
THIS is photography.. not some dumb pictures of stones, bricks and walls.....
10:31 PM
