Saturday, December 08, 2007
just because i'm used to it doesn't make it any easier,
just because i don't say anthing doesn't mean i'm not upset,
just because i know the truth doesn't mean you can blatantly show your bias-ness,
just because i'm a dependable doesn't mean you can take me for granted,
just because i'm not your favorite doesn't mean i'm not your child as well.
i'm the one who sacrifices my sleep just to wake up early on weekends to make breakfast for you.
i'm the one who doesn't like having dinner outside because i don't want you to eat dinner on your own.
i'm the one who doesnt' throw crazy temper tantrums and curses you every time i'm pissed.
i'm the one who's always thinking for you and would rather inconvenience myself than you.
i'm the one you don't have to worry about...
but that doesn't mean you can put my on "auto-pilot" and expect me not to feel hurt when you neglect me.
the more dependable i am, the more you take me for granted.
the more my siblings (namely my brother) treat you like crap the more you cherish every nice gesture they do for you.
so from now on, i'm not going to care. i'm sick of being unappreciated. so i'm just going to treat you the way they treat you. why should i continue being the goodie two shoes if you don't appreciate it?
this is the fate of the middle child.
