Tuesday, February 06, 2007
i've been on a diet ever since i could remember.. i think for the past 7 years, i've never been able to indulge in something and not feel guilty when the comfort of the food wears off...
i've been on the verge of obesity.. literally.. those who've seen me in sec one should know.. my freaking BMI was 27.2.. technically overweight.. and i've been told countless times that i'm fat. and teased in school for my weight. bah. stupid TAF club only made matters worse by embarrasing us in front of the whole school. we had to run during recess in the parade square.. although i usually made stupid excuses to avoid training.. heh...
being fat is not a crime so i don't see why they must embarrass us to make us lose weight.. perhaps training after school? but during recess?! that's when we need time to recharge our batteries... not to run around the parade square non-stop for 10 minutes! bah.
but ever since, i have lost weight.. and although my BMI now is in the healthy range of 21.. why do i not feel satisfied?! why do i still feel so fat?!?! bah!
and the fat now is really starting to irritate me! ARGH!
the goal now.. is to have a BMI of 18.. then.. i'll be really very very ultra satisfied.. wahahhaaaa.. my goal weight... 48 kgs.. but it will be considered underweight for my height.. so.. i'll be really satisfied with 50 kgs.. and i'm not far!! =) 8 kgs to go.. i can do it one! yes. i know. i just told you all my weight. bah.
ah well. i will do it.
water. green tea. no carbs.
i will do it!
wish me luck! i'll need it.. =)
oh. and for my darling dear friends who are going to tell me i'm not fat.. realise that i'm not thin either.. so.. heh.
thinspiration.
