Friday, February 09, 2007
i'm ready to remove all things that remind me of him from my room.
all the photographs, all the presents he gave, all things that remind me of him..
i'm ready. its about time to move on...
i'm sick of being in this place where i keep thinking that he's still mine.. i hate myself when i still accidently refer to him as "my bf".. because it only reminds me that he is no longer mine..
i want to move on. teach me how.
it hurts so much, i don't feel it anymore.. i have gotten used to feel the pain, i have become indifferent to it.
my room feels so empty now. so is my heart.
i thought i was going to be ok.. but i go crazy.. everytime i think of him..
cuz i still care. i care so much about him its stupid cause he really doesn't care anymore..
and i still love him. i love him so much its plain crazy, especially when he didn't think twice about hurting me..
these tears are uncontrollable, the pain is now resurfacing tormenting me more than ever.
my heart just can't hide, those feelings inside.. i go crazy.
