tmr would have been our one year anniversary.
we met on the 3rd of Jan 2006.. i remember so clearly cuz it was the first day of work at Billy Bombers.. already working in a new environment is very scary.. what was more intimidating were the people.. when i was introduced to all the staff there.. there was this ah beng cook at the runner station with his leg propped on a shelf and his elbow resting on his knee.. when Amy introduced me he gave the typical ah beng response..
we had supper after work at Macs on the 5th of Jan all of us... and he sat beside me.. he ate so many packets of curry sauce.. haha.. he had the beef fan-tastic.. which i took a bite of.. had to leave early so off i went.. then suddenly there was a msg from some unknown number.. it was Adrain.. nope.. not AdrIAn it was AdrAIn.. hahaa.. one drain. a drain. haha.. i honestly believed him when he said that that was the way he spelt his name it was on his punch card.. ha. hm. guillible.. from then.. we started talking on the phone quite often.. if i'm not wrong on that night itself we started talking already.. i was intrigued by this guy.. i was.. so beng yet so innocent.. haha..
Jan 7, 2006 we had our first date.. as friend friend kinda date.. we went to watch a chinese movie about shun wu kong.. hahaa.. so weird right.. we watched at suntec.. i still remember.. our first date.. awkward.. we went to marina square to have lunch.. i still remember what he ate.. he had claypot rice.. while i just had desert.. i still remember how it felt.. really.. i honestly do..
two weeks later.. on 20th of Jan he came over to my house to watch a movie.. and that's when we became a couple.. =) monkey and crocodile cuz i was fierce.. i know.. childish right? but it was sweet.. oh. and he brought mr zhou jie lun baby along.. haha..
that's the first pic i took of him.. he has this hairdo where he had a multi-coloured tail.. beng right? but cute..
one year later.. here we are.. broken.. throughout this year we have been saying.. next year we can do this and we can do that.. like oh .. next year we can get tickets to the ching gay parade and we won't have to join the crowds.. or.. next holiday we can go hang out after work again.. time will fly by.. again we'll be here gazing at the stars..
indeed, time flew by.. but no longer will we be able to gaze at the stars together, neither will we be able to go to the zoo again on valentines day.. or will we be able to sit the new cable car to sentosa.. no longer will i feel your soft face pressed against mine.. neither will i feel your soft lips on mine..
it hurts. reality hurts. one year. my first true love. gone.
i miss agreeing that we must "he mu gong chu" and then start pinching each other 5 seconds later..
i miss squabbling with you about who is more immature.. how old are you already? tsk. still so childish.
i miss how i can't see your eyes when you laugh.. they become literally like this.. ^^..
i miss playing "qing wa tiao" and you claiming that it is a practice round when you lose..
i miss biting you when we kiss. heck. i still remember our first kiss..
i miss hearing you call me mushy nick names..
i miss how you give me answers that i wanna hear..
i miss that you know what i wanna hear.. mmm.. tao yan.. *combs hair and acts shy.. *
i miss holding out my hand and counting to three waiting for you to hold it.. one, two......three.. i say please already ar........
i miss how we always meet at the same spot at Tamp MRT.. i have been back.. i sat for half an hour just to sit and wonder if you'll come..
honestly, politely, sincerely, amazing. ridiculous! you come to school to study! are some of your favorite phrases.. although lame.. but nevertheless cute.
i miss how although we say we won't celebrate our monthly "anniveraries" we never forget them.. every month we'll say happy birthday instead of happy anniversary...
so baby, for the last time.. happy birthday.. one year together has really taught me a lot about myself.. i have come to realise how much i can love another person... and how much i can compromise for another person.. for the first time in my life i loved a man unconditionally.. i have fallen so deep into love that i lost the ability to be on my own.. as it has been you that i've been relying on for the past year.. i love you, i really do.
and it hurts so bad. so please..take this pain away.. i said please already... please?
