we were supposed to present in percom today.. read out a passage.. i found this online.. at http://www.poems-and-quotes.com/sad/poems.php?id=822881 by amber.
Happy days she still remembers
Memories still exist
Laughing til she cried with him
Is what she comes to miss
She can close her eyes
That smile he used to have
She can smile because these things
Memories arn't that bad
She can close her eyes and smell
The cologne he used to wear
She can remember the love she felt
Because he used to care
She can close her eyes and see
The pain he's placed on her
She can close her eyes and see
They're not where they were
She can cry those tears of pain
That stream down her broken face
For in her heart and in her mind
She knows she's been replaced.
i cried the first time i read it.. its friday.. its been one week.. the wound is slowly starting to heal.. and i'm a stronger person than i thought i was.. i thought i'd cave in i thought i'd break down and die in the middle of the road or something.. but black hair and 4 kilos lesser ... i'm still alive.. and starting to enjoy my single status..
i will NEVER depend on a man anymore ( other than daddy..the only trustworth man on earth).. cuz men are just not to be trusted.. really.. take what he says with a pinch of salt.. he won't tell you the truth cuz he'll be "afraid to hurt you".. what bullshit when it is quite obvious that when you find out it'll hurt you even more..
and. there is no need for me to avoid any one of them.. cuz i didn't do anything wrong. my conscience is clear. I'm not the third party. I didn't break anyone up. Neither did I cheat on him.I'm guilt free. my conscience is CLEAR. I don't need to go out of my way avoiding any of them.. at all.. should anyone be avoiding anyone/anything it should be him, because he is the one who put all of us in this situation.. if he really cared.. he wouldn't put her in the position as the third party.. who would want to put the one they love in that position?
ah. everything let out. i feel happy now. emo. but happy. =)
anyhow.. went to school today.. same old same old.. wore formal.. its still kinda weird seeing everyone in formal.. changed into something more comfy after and headed to city hall with Charm.. didn't go shisha cuz Charm's friend is sick.. so no point just the two of us right?
went to Marina Sq.. went to Topshop, Zara and Mango.. and i only bought one item.. hahhaa. quite pathetic.. was looking for a pair of jeans.. but couldn't find a nice pair.. =S. another time maybe..
look at the nice blouse! the material was really smooth!! but so ex!!
this is the skirt i bought.. look at how it makes my legs look really long! ahh..love love!
i look different don't i? dyed my hair for a second time last night..
ahh.. i'm loving my new size.. i can not only fit into a size 5 skirt from G2000 and a size 6 pair of jeans from Zara.. i can slip into it.. ha! but.. still need to lose weight.. if only i wasn't so afraid of puking i might resort to bulimia.. i binged today.. not good.. nope...
its been one week without my pillar.. i'm learning to stand on my own..
