Little Miss Lazy Bum

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

why didn't i go to JC?? now i really feel such a strong sense of regret...

at first i thought that i wouldn't do well enough to get into a jc ( i got L1R5- 25 fucking points for prelims.. ) .. so my next resort was to choose a poly.. but then my results blew me away ( L1r5-13) and then i was already so determined to go into mass comms.. that i just applied for mass comms.. i didn't even consider my options..why??? why??? why??????????

i know i know... the pressure in JC is as much as now in CMM.. but still, now i feel that i have the potential to do well in JC cuz i work well under stress.. so why didn't i just go to JC?? WHY?? aiya..

i know there will be many people out there who are cursing and swearing now cuz i should be feeling grateful that i got in to CMM cuz a lot of other people are vying for my spot.

honestly, i was quite surprised that i got into CMM so easily.. CMM TP was my first choice. then NP mass comms was my second choice. i didn't even put a JC as my choice... shhh.. don't tell daddy.. i know secretly he wished i went to a JC although he keeps saying that he's glad i'm happy where i am.. i think if i told him i would rather go to a jc now, he'll be rushing to the nearest jc and asking for my options.. hahaa....

but anyhow. i've already made that decision. so i guess i have to live with it ya?

but........................ if only.........................................

this is going to be one hell of a long entry.. so many things to let out..

ok. advice. i'm not sure if the girl i wanna give advice to will read this blog.. but i sure hope she does.. i think she's in one big mess.. not that i know her so well but i feel that she seems quite upset. so. i'll tell you my advice.. not sure she'll be reading but heck. just in case ya?

follow your heart!

don't sacrifice one person because you don't wanna hurt another person. go with the one you truely love.. follow your heart..

i learnt it from my previous relationship. we broke cuz i wanted time to re-think our relationship and where we were heading.. and in the 3 mths that we didn't talk to each other i met Adrian while working and after awhile i really began to like him a lot. i'd check his schedule and check whether he was working that day and which days he'll be working.. i know.. kinda like a stalker right? haha.. oops.. anyhow.. then gradually we started going out to watch movies and stuff and i knew where my heart was.. then after about one month of being together my ex called me and asked me if i wanted to spend valentines day with him and that he has changed for me and all that crap guys say to convince you that he's the one for you. and then he brought up the fact that i told him that we could have a chance in the future.. and i was like....... what?? he took it as a promise but i took it as a hypothetical phrase............ if i had left Adrian just because of that "promise" that i made to him such a long time ago... i would have let go of the one that i love most just because i didn't want to hurt the other guy's feelings..

but maybe it was easier for me to make a decision cuz Adrian was a clear winner.. haha.. can you image wanting to break up with someone after 1 week of being togehter? haha.. that was one funny immature relationship...

i'm glad i went to work. and found such a wonderful monkey.. haha.. speaking of which.. i feel like going back to work.. it reminds me of the times that monkey and i had.. him playing in the kitchen and me slogging as a waitress... wahahaha! i shall go back and work during the next holls.. =) its funny how i just worked last last week and i'm already missing my workplace.....

8:20 PM